I actually started this list months ago inspired by a friend. So long ago that it feels like a whole other life. I was still in Atlanta for my internship. I hadn’t even had the chance to get pregnant yet. I hadn’t had the miscarriage. I hadn’t photographed a single Colorado wedding. I had yet to get paid for my photography beyond the chai teas and food Mark occasionally bought me. And getting to the other side from where I was to where I wanted to be just seemed so daunting so I never finished the list. I think I thought if I asked for too much maybe I’d end up with nothing. I’d jinx myself somehow by actually saying what I want for myself, for my family, for my relationship with the world. But then I saw Meg’s post today on A Practical Wedding and I sat down to write myself a list. Because it’s silly to just sit here hoping and wishing things happen. I don’t intend to sit around and passively experience my life. I have things to do. I’m taking ownership now and saying what I want right now. It’ll change, it’ll evolve. Every so often I’ll check back in with my list and see what I’ve accomplished, what I no longer want, what I newly want, and I’ll reflect on where I’ve been and where I’m going. It’s a list that’s about me but not just about me.
I honestly tried to sit down and write this list this morning and then I realized I can’t plan my whole life in an hour or two. A week I think I can do. So I’ll challenge both of us, you and I, to take time this week to dream. To dream and to concentrate. To actively think about what we want to do in our lives. What we want to accomplish. What we want to experience. Who we want to be. There are no restrictions, just put on paper (or screen) 100 things you really want to do now, or you know; 10, 30, 50 years from now.
I’ll see you back here Tuesday, December 6th, lists in hand. That’s my deadline because I will not do this if I don’t have a deadline. And some things are just too important to push off indefinitely. Feel free to set your own deadline.